My friend Rob of The V-Pub has invited me to a five day challenge. The challenge is – “Post a photo each day for five consecutive days and attach a story to the photo. It can be fiction or non-fiction, a poem or a short paragraph and each day nominate another blogger for the challenge”. Rob’s blogs are so humorous and insightful, that they never fail to bring a smile on my face. Please visit his blog any time you feel too stressed out about life 🙂 Today, is my first day of the challenge.
My first write up is about : “Things Left Unsaid”. A lot of times, as we grow up, we deliberately move away from expressing how we feel. We STOP expressing. We stop telling our loved ones how much we love them, we stop saying thank you when we feel grateful, we stop saying sorry just because our ego comes in between. These are the things growing up teaches you.
But today, as you read this, I want you to go back in time when you were a carefree child and never thought twice before expressing how you felt. By no means, I intend to preach being insensitive and inconsiderate towards how others feel and be brutal, on the other hand I want you to spread love, smiles, joy & kindness all around. And guess what, they are free !! It only takes a few loving words and a smile on your face. ….Because at the end of the day, you should not be left feeling empty & shallow regretting for things you “wish” you did !!
Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable
I regret not the things I’ve done, but those I did not do.
Today I was running a search on my email id. There was a particular email address whose communication I wanted to find. As I ran through the search, I was surprised to find so many messages in my “Drafts” folder. I don’t know what occurred to me. All of a sudden. That I ran this email search. That I read every single email all over again in my drafts. That I read every mail chain we exchanged. That I re read some of the messages, I so much wanted to send to “that” email id, and ended up sending to myself. What was wrong with me ?
When did I change ? And more importantly, why did I change ? When I look back , I was an 18 something teenager who fell madly in love with you. Someone who believed in never holding back any emotion and expressed any feeling straight without caring for the consequences.
As I look today at myself today , I some how feel ashamed of the reflection that looks back at me. When did I start restraining and holding back my emotions ? Why did I stop reaching out to you ? How could I stop telling you what you mean to me ? How well I had learnt to fake a smile when from the inside I was wailing ! Indeed I was a quick learner. Everyone admires my life. I know up to some extent, you too. But what they see from far is the beauty I show them. No one knows how badly my soul is wounded.
I regret giving up . I gave up telling you how badly I NEED you back. Telling you how madly I love you and will love you. Reminding you – Always. I regret for the drafts and the mails I sent to myself instead of sending them to you. I regret giving up on you. Like a flooded river, tears are flooding down my eyes.
And even today, I save one more draft in your memory. I hope some crazy night I become that Fearless teen again and hit the send button without caring for the consequences.
Today, I nominate Supreet, of TheOnlySsup. The rules are as follows:
“Post a photo each day for five consecutive days and attach a story to the photo. It can be fiction or non-fiction, a poem or a short paragraph and each day nominate another blogger for the challenge”.