Often, we put ourselves on the line for our best friends.How rare it is to find someone who is just a ‘friend’; not they or you being their ‘best friend’ but they do something for you so special that it finds a forever unforgettable place in your heart.
I studied in an all girls convent high school since my kindergarten right up to grade 12. So, technically I know Kay for over 20 years ! We became friends in grade 8. She was one of the sweetest, coolest and kindest person I knew. Someone I aspired to be like. Super creative, talented and so expressive. Till grade 10, our roll numbers in class were consecutive as we shared the same surname. She and I were partners in crime and I wouldn’t be exaggerating if I said that we troubled all our high school teachers beyond possible limits. Post grade 10, she moved to science stream and changed schools. We kept in touch nonetheless.
In grade 12, I had my first real crush on one of my seniors. There were butterflies in my tummy every time I thought of him. One day I happened to discuss this with Kay over the phone. And she told me to find out what he thought of me or whether or not he already had a girlfriend. Back then, I used to be this shy girl and far far away from becoming a courageous and expressive person I am today. I just couldn’t muster up the courage to do so.
This is when my gladiator in shining armor – Kay declares she’s going to take the matter in her hands and find out. And we make a plan. I didn’t have a Facebook account at that time. So there was no way for me to talk to him apart from text SMSs. Kay said she will find him on Facebook and speak to him discreetly to find out what was in his heart. And she did it ! Can you believe it !
Now here comes the twist. This guy I had a crush on was so stubborn and difficult to crack; that no matter how hard Kay tried, he didn’t give her any information. Kay went to the extent of creating a fake love story of herself and her fictional crush and telling him about it with the hopes that he too would in turn soften and open up to her. And viola ! It worked. But it was still quite hazy and we couldn’t connect the dots with the information he’d provided :p
Not to let suspicions arise, I waited for some weeks and finally mustered up the courage to tell him how I felt about him. As ridiculous it may sound and as dumb as it might seem, it actually felt great to express. Now don’t ask me what happened between us – okay ! It didn’t click, as he didn’t feel for me the way I did. And it’s okayyy 🙂 At least the anxiety and suspense had come to an end ! I felt light and relieved and calm.
In our very limited friendship, Kay did influence me so much that words might betray me to express the same. I became so much more confident of my own self, courageous, expressive and learnt to be kind for no reason. Every time I think of Kay, I smile. Yesterday was her birthday and I spoke to her after close to 5 to 7 years at least, to wish her a happy birthday. This is a birthday present for you Kani 😀
Thank you for putting yourself on the line for me. You have a special place in my heart today and always. You’ve shown me what it means to be a friend. ❤