18th Nov., 2018
For a long time, I had been reading and hearing about things like being ‘in perfect alignment with the Universe’, ‘asking the Universe for guidance’, trusting the ‘Synchronicity of events’ and tapping into our ‘Intuitive guidance system’ for answers.
To read/hear and to experience first hand are two very different things. I didn’t know if it all really worked as these are quite abstract concepts, very much dependent on our faith and internal belief system. I had many times experienced several coincidences which have been absolutely out of the blue and I am a big believer in fate or destiny, hence I knew that although these are things I haven’t experienced myself – they do exist.
Last night, I could barely sleep. I was tossing and turning in the bed with a gazillion thoughts racing my mind. I was anxious, worried, nervous, stressed and very confused. I faced a dilemma for which a decision needed to be taken, but I was torn between what I felt was right vs what I thought was right. This crossroad I was standing at, was originally a part of a much larger question or decision which was like a 1000 piece puzzle and the confusion I faced, was towards – say the piece 1 of the puzzle. At just piece 1, I felt overwhelmed about what to do, who to listen to and how to find the best solution to the problem at hand.
There were a few things I immediately set to do as soon as I encountered this moment of anxiety and confusion. I spoke to my brother about the thing end to end and tried to take his perspective to the situation. Next, I dropped a text to my best friend very briefly explaining my query and the background to it. My friend was kind of really busy for the next 3 days and I really didn’t expect/hope for any help/answers; so I just left it at that dropping a final message saying ‘Let’s speak when you can’. I was fully aware, that we had no chance to speak before the coming Monday and it might be too late by then, but I still took the chance and sent that message casually, without indicating that it was very urgent or critical.
Well, as luck would have it – my brother presented to me an answer which contradicted to what I wanted to hear… The course of action I wanted to follow was based on what I felt, and I knew it wasn’t the most logical or rational or sane thing for a person to do. But, I was just going by my philosophy of ‘take the risk or lose the chance’.
By the time the clock struck 6, I was all restless. And what better to do to calm a restless mind, than going for a walk by the sea? But hey! I chose the best rather than the ‘better’ solution – a run by the seaside to calm down my nerves and help me think clearly (plus you get to build some endurance as a bonus 😛 )