18th Nov., 2018
I went to bed with a lot of joy, excitement, positivity, and love like one happy camper. I was expecting things to work my way. I heard a lot of beautiful music, wrote some nice emails and dozed off to sleep.
I woke up around 2:30 AM tossing and turning on the bed to some messages on my proposed solution being tossed. I was upset as I hadn’t declined the proposed idea, I just added a layer to it for the assurance of the people who matter to me. I was okay to proceed provided I saw the same dedication from the other side as well. I was quite positive on this before going to bed, but I woke up to excuses and greed. All of it was a big red flag. I immediately got my answer. The Universe gave me my answer. It not just gave me the answer for the 1 piece of the puzzle I was looking at (how to go from point A to point B) but in fact solved the 1000 piece puzzle in the shortest and simplest yet most magnificent and modest stroke. It showed me the entire bigger picture view, I was missing – the A to Z of the path.
I decided to take this as a sign or as my answer from the Universe and go ahead with this. Although it was the exact opposite of what I initially wanted to do, it made perfect sense to chuck the plan. I gracefully declined the idea and apologized for the confusion and said very clearly that ‘I spoke to my parents and my mentor and this is what they think. They haven’t denied me what I am asking for to do. I can’t defy these people. They have just asked what I am asking for as an assurance for their comfort and my well being and I think it makes sense.’ After a long time, I found my voice and took my stand. Without any fear or worry. With my head held high, I spoke my heart.
Like a full-blown ballon being touched with a hot needle, the entire saga delated down. I was still quite worried about one aspect of the entire thing for which I couldn’t really sleep. I prayed to God to sort the final piece of the chaos. And to my sheer disbelief, it was taken care in the matter of an hour of without a single scar. In the meanwhile, I found comfort talking about my worries with a friend in a different time zone who happened to be awake luckily at that late hour and who calmed me in the interim.
Finally, the whole confusion was cleared and I called it a night at 4:50 AM 😛 What a roller coaster ride these two days had been! Although they had been very stressful and emotionally challenging, I learned some very important lessons for myself.
I learned what matters to me and why, and what makes me uncomfortable.
I learned that I had to identify and also enforce my boundaries and stand up for myself.
I learned that I was quite naive in a lot of experiences to go through in life and that I should not hesitate to seek help from the people I trust and love, as they are none other than God’s angel’s sent to look after and guide you in moments of vulnerability…
Lastly . . . . . The Universe has abundant synchronicities for you, only if your quiet down a bit, and focus on the coincidences it brings to you.