Love vs. Fear

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A few months back when I was studying A Course in Miracles (ACIM) and The Universe Has Your Back (TUHYB), I was religious and sincere to understand the key concepts and apply them in every opportunity I could find in my daily life – be it to regularize my exercise schedule, planning the perfect holiday, forgiving, letting go, taking risks, looking around with kindness and having a never-ending quest for miracles. I had convinced myself that there is no order of difficulties in miracles and that miracles were natural. All this and more, was because I chose love over fear. I chose to learn through the teacher of love rather than fear.

Have you ever experienced the feeling where you keep your favorite book in a dusty corner, forget all about it and then one fine day just stumble across and realize how much you’ve missed it and how incomplete your days have been without having it in your vicinity…? Well, I have had a similar metaphorical experience. Somewhere over the past few months, I lost connection with my inner self, my spiritual practice, listening to things that resonated much with my personal philosophy and conscious practice for self-awareness. My soul felt like the book being covered by a layer of dust, not properly tended to. As a result, I had fallen prey to fear. My heart felt open, vulnerable and susceptible to even the slightest noise around. It was as if I had lost the balance I had worked so hard to gain in the very first place. Like a house of cards, one gust of wind and one card being lightly ruffled, I came tumbling down – with fear, worry, doubt, and negativity. I couldn’t really come to terms with how I responded under some situations and I must admit I wasn’t particularly proud of the person I saw in the mirror…

Well, you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home 

Hence, I decided to change… To go back to the old routine… The old way. To reconnect my soul with the infinite abundance and wisdom. To unlearn, learn and relearn. To chip off the fear and carve beautiful patterns of love and faith. I wanted to act from a place of love and abundance. To move away and heal from the fear-based stories, perceptions, and choices I was making. To see things differently. I was willing to surrender. To ask for help. From God. To pray. To be humble enough to admit that I do not know and I can not know and that I seek to be led and guided.

I think it truly is about the journey and the process rather than the end goal or the destination. I am grateful that I lost my way in between. It has shown to me the things that matter. The people who stood by me when I wasn’t the best version of myself. The loved ones who sent their love to me although they were far away from me. More importantly, it has got me back to the teacher of love. To embrace myself and erase the shadows of fear and doubts.

I trust that the universe has my back and that I am loved and being guided. 

Namaste.

 

22 thoughts on “Love vs. Fear

  1. Strawberry Fields Fresh Forever At LeasT FoR NoW As
    MeeK iNheRiT ThE LoVE oF EarTH WitH LoVE NoW..
    SMiLes HiMaLi.. “Strawberry FieldsForever” Is a Hopeful
    Song By ‘The Beatles’ Who Also Suggest in a Song
    That “Love is All You Need”
    True.. We Need
    Love but
    The DArk
    Guards the
    Light of Love
    From Growing Dim too
    As You Beautifully Relate in the
    Poetry You Express Below From Your Heart and Soul

    “Well, you only need the light when it’s burning low
    Only miss the sun when it starts to snow”

    “Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
    Only hate the road when you’re missing home”

    How Blessed are Those Now Who Experience Heaven
    And Hell for We Understand Better That Both Are Connected
    In The
    Joy to Be
    Namaste
    To You my
    Friend How
    Precious it is
    For Spirits Loving Souls..:)

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    • Hellooove, Fred! Namaste to you… Well, Strawberry reminded me of a friend who calls me Strawberry 😛
      Honestly, we are lucky to experience the lows and the highs, that makes us appreciate the good times and hold on to hope and faith in the not-so-good-times 🙂 Hugs and iSmiles your wayyy…

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      • Hellooove to You as Well HiMaLi.. First of
        aLL I THinK That We
        Might All be Happier
        If We Begin With
        Hellooove And
        End With
        Namaste
        At Essence of
        Feeling no matter
        Symbols used now
        Second of all i have
        Several nicknames
        For you and my
        Favorite is
        ‘Hot Chocolate’
        As You Bring
        Sweet
        Joy to
        me
        And
        Warmth
        Let’s Keep
        It Spiritual
        Of course and
        Not make it
        A Metaphor
        Like the Moon
        Dark and Attractive
        Too Moon is a Spiritual
        Nickname i Love
        For You too my
        Dream for you
        Is the Reality
        Of my Lifelong
        Journey Now
        As Means to
        Love All May
        one
        Day You
        Dance Like the
        Milky Way
        Naked
        Of
        Culture the
        Universe Unto
        YouR Self With
        That’s Left to
        Do Is Give and
        Share To Others
        There We Will
        All Hold
        Hands
        Together
        In Peace And
        Harmony And
        Love Forever Now
        No Matter Distance
        Space or Time
        This The
        An Ultimate
        Gift i Wish And
        Pray For You
        Namaste
        With Love For All
        Hot Chocolate More 😇

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  2. It is a journey we all take Himali. Every now and then we will be nudged to ‘see’ where we are at. It is like an alarm clock going off to see if we are asleep or not. Most of the time we are awake, if sometimes a little sleepy, but it is a part of life so that we can understand what has meaning or not and adjust accordingly.
    I recently needed to see something that was buried very deeply and in the process I felt that I had lost my way…but in truth I was not lost but in fact being found by the events that were happening. I was so distracted that I did in fact feel hollow, but in hindsight I was just making way for the beauty as I understood that part of me that was holding me back which now allows me to ‘see’ more clearly, opening my love and understanding of myself which allows me to give from a much better place. Without them we would be lost.
    Those parts of us may seem like a trial but they are in fact the magic that sets us free. May your journey give you that beauty ❤

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    • Absolutely loved your message :

      “…but in truth I was not lost but in fact being found by the events that were happening. I was so distracted that I did in fact feel hollow, but in hindsight I was just making way for the beauty as I understood that part of me that was holding me back which now allows me to ‘see’ more clearly, opening my love and understanding of myself which allows me to give from a much better place. Without them we would be lost. Those parts of us may seem like a trial but they are in fact the magic that sets us free.”

      I can fully relate to your words. For a long time I felt numb, shallow and empty. It was a lingering sense of emptiness… But now I can better appreciate the things and people who add meaning to life and recognize that it is only me who can complete myself and keep myself happy… Unless your cup is full, how can you give/ share with others!? 🙂

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  3. It is breathtaking… not only what you wrote (which has so much truth in it) but because I can relate to it so well. I felt the same a couple of weeks ago. Exhausted, without energy, moody, overwhelmed with the smallest things, not being able to make decisions, and more or less on the verge to a burnout. Until I decided to take better care of myself, go out, make room for myself and not only trying to fill the rare minutes I have during the day and on the weekends. An amazing feeling when we put ourselves first again and decide not to let fear control life. It truly is only a decision. I decided to be happy and enjoy my life in whatever I do. It has become a life again.
    Thank you for this post. Looks like we have so much in common and it feels good being not the only one struggling at times, right?

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    • ” Until I decided to take better care of myself, go out, make room for myself and not only trying to fill the rare minutes I have during the day and on the weekends. An amazing feeling when we put ourselves first again and decide not to let fear control life.”

      I head a beautiful video which passed on a very lovely message:

      TREAT YOURSELF AS SOMEONE YOU LOVE ❤

      I have also fully committed my self to self-care and self-love… Unless your cup is full, how can you give/ share with others!? 🙂

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      • I love that message. We are as everyone is. So why are we tending to treat ourselves worse than others. We are all desevering… WE, not they! And yes, I agree, we can’t give away what we don’t have!! 💖

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  4. Can someone explain me the philosophy behind this post? Sorry, I failed to understand but as a person with philosophical thoughts, I think this post is trying to convey something valuable. Will be happy to understand if someone helps by decoding this in simple terms.

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