Less than 48 hours back I was having a throwback moment writing an email to myself after a meditation (I hadn’t planned what I was going to write, I just went with the flow) recalling some funny blooper moments I have had in 2013. I went to the park early in the morning to get some fresh air and exercise, but my mind was preoccupied with thoughts and the work out that I planned for 45 minutes, came to a screeching halt in just 20 minutes as I just couldn’t concentrate! I do a lot of self-talk when no one’s around (I know it sounds silly 😛 ) and I caught myself being gloomy rather than reminiscing.
We love a lot of people in our lives. As a friend, as an inspiration, as a crush, as a lover, as a member of one’s family, as a sibling. The list can go on endlessly as the labels we attach to relations we share in life. Of all the people who enter our lives, we love a few of them and give a special place to them in our hearts.
As humans, all of us are flawed. We make mistakes. We have expectations. We have limits to our patience and compassion. We may lie or break trust at times. Sometimes for a good cause too.
Sub.: Letting go
I know it’s hard. I know you want to hold the sand in your fist, a bit longer. But the harder you’re trying to hold on it to, the quicker it’s flowing away; isn’t it ? Letting go is hard, to put it as the very least. There’s pain and agony which is directly related to the affection and the connection you share with the person or the thing you are about to let go.
I read a really beautiful story online yesterday and I was so deeply moved, I couldn’t resist sharing it with you all. The essence of the story is :
Life is like a tree. The people in your life are either three things.
Some people are in your life for a short period….
Others there for a few years….
And a few others are there for a lifetime….
They are either a leaf, a branch or a root on your life tree.
Around some time in my life, I was deeply devastated on a personal loss. I wept and begged, but nothing seemed to work. It was like I had fallen deep into a pit, from which I simply couldn’t come out. With every passing day, I fell in deeper and deeper. Then one fine day, old friends came by. They threw me a ladder; and helped me climb, a step at a time. Today, I am so much thankful and indebted to them that my words defy me to express my gratitude.
At times, we need to let go some people. People you loved so dearly. It is heart-wrenching and extremely painful. But, trust me; once you let go off the wrong people, the right ones will find a way.
“You don’t love because: you love despite; not for the virtues, but despite the faults.”
“Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on. Let your tears water the seeds of your future happiness.”
The key here is to let go, let go the person, the pain, the feeling. BUT without being bitter and giving up on life and love. After all, failures and setbacks are a part of life. Love is not a because, it is despite.
A small poem by me:
I am tired of defending,
I am exhausted justifying,
I give up on explaining.
It was you I trusted the most,
And thought who would understand me,
Beyond my looks and brains.